Ok. The idea behind this is that you post anonamously and say something you wouldn't say to me if I could read your signature. I don't care what it is.

Ok. Well, that was a lame way of stating it, but it's the best I can do. Everyone on my friends list is doing this too, so I'm interested to see what others say.

. . . if anything.

Edited so that you can post anonymously . . .

Well, I suppose I'll recap the holidays and any other random things I'm thinking of tonight, in case anyone out there be interested.

Well, on the 24th, I had to work. Which was ok. To give you an idea of what my typical work day is like, it's like having 30 grandparents to visit every single day. But, since most are mad out of there heads with dementia, I am the guy who gives them their medication and hopes it calms the more violent ones down enough so we can help them.

SO after 8 hours of that, I went to wallmart to pick up some wrapping paper, wich naturaly I forgot to do. This was because their was an announcement over the entercom that they were giving away free christmas trees! So, I decided to yank one. A nice little 4 footer. Teeny little guy. I was so happy to get it. I could fit it in my back seat of my chevy cavalier with room to spare.  

So, my car will forever smell of pine.

When I got into town, my wife pointed out something obvious to me.

We didn't have a tree stand.

So, I tried to think of something to hold it up. but I couldn't. So I put it outside and pushed snow around the base of it, wich held it up for nearly 48 hours before it fell down. Even still, I am happy I found my little tree. Maybe that's what I'll actualy try to do next year. Just show up after work on Xmas eve and find the smallest tree for free and bring the puppy home.

Probably not the best thing to count on as far as finding a tree though, right?

The 25th was ok. I got a wonderful present from my wife (a note saying I can pick out a computer monitor! YAYYYYYY! I'm so happy I could scream!), Band of brothers on DVD (Highly reccomended if you havnt seen it.) Shindlers list (also highly recomended) and a Barns and Nobles book store gift card (now I'll have to find an excuse to go to Topeka), and an Ebay gift card for 50 buckaroos, plus 74 dollars from a fund set up for work where they devide money the residents and their families donate between the staff. Nothing more fon in the world than money you can just out right waste. Shure it'd be smarter to save it. But that wouldn't be fun! 

I am so lucky to have a wife that lets me have fun.

Dinner was good, since we had both turkey AND ham. Mashed potatoes were the best. I'm biast though, in that I truly LOVE mashed potatoes. Right up there with any shrimp, and my grandma's recipi of read beans and rice.


Annnnd, that brings us to today. I am hoping to compleat my mini army of storm troopers for my collection of star wars action figures (Don't laugh. Everyone has to have a hobby, and that's one of mine!). I only plan on getting about 10 more figures tops. This is mostly due to lack of room. I have won 4 of them on E bay already (Thanks to those residents from work ^_^), so that means once they get here, I'll only have 6 more to go. After that, it's the occasonal droid now and then till I get more room, wich could be years.

Don't worry shweety pie, Hasbro dosn't make too many droids a year, and even less of em are actualy worth buying. 

I also have a few vintage (1970-80's) figures I need to finnish restoring. I may get a few more of them at some point, but also because of lack of room, I won't be doing that much longer neither.

So, naturaly as my update as to what I did on the 26th, I spent a lot of time watching Band of Brothers, and wandering Ebay trying not to drool over action figures.

I have no life.

Tomorow, is December 27th, 2007. I will be 27 years old at exactly 10:10PM U.S/Canadian Centeral Standard Time. That's almost 30, wich makes me feel old. My wife is going to take me to see I am Legend (I love end of the world movies), and hopefuly let me pick out a new computer monitor if we have time. That depends largely on the weather, and when our neighbors can watch Yuna.

My next day off (the 28th) I plan to start working on the latest chapter of Double Jeopardy. Since most who will read this probably already know what that is. I'v typed enough already.

Hope all is well out there in the great wide web of the world.

Tearaeden / Neuroleptic 

 

 What do I SAY here? 

It's interesting. I can go on and on and on when someone says something like, "My cat is orange!" but I can't come up with my own subject to attempt to start a conversation.

Dose that make me boring?

Maybe it's because I am new to this whole bloging thing, I don't know.

Or maybe it's old age. Yeah, that's it. Old age. I'm going to be 27 in a little more than 5 days 45 minutes or so depending on when I finnish writing this nonsenseical post. That's almost 30, wich makes me old, especialy since men don't live past 65 in my family. So I'm coming close to have lived half my life. Makes one a bit nervous to think about.

But that has NOTHING to do with why I can't seem to think of a decent subject. So, what kind of things am I supposed to say on here? 

Anyone?

 I believe that there is a higher power and that something happens to us when we die. However, I also belive that no one can say with 100% certanty just what that higher power or life after death actualy IS.

I have returned to live journal to try to actualy make an attempt to learn how to use it.

Howdy everyone. Iv finaly updateing my journal. I no longer live in missouri. I live in Manhattan Kansas. I still work for food 4 less, but the super duper giant thats no moon its a space station walmart that opened up a stones throw down the street from my store is probably going to put us out of bisuness within two years. no hurry I suppose, if I dont mind only working 32 hours a week wich is what they cut my hours down to for next week. I dont realy mind though honestly. Ill still make enough to get by for now. AND itll give me alot more time to go job hunting. I also have next saturday off.

Today is spring of 2004.Iv accomplished quite a bit for myself this year, relocateing to a new state and setting up an apartment of my own to live in by myself for the first time in two years has ben rather rewarding though it is takeing longer than I thought. I still have a few things I need, but nothing major now. Iv also set up quite a few goals for this year for myself. I wonder by years end how many ill have compleated. Learning to drive getting engaged and getting a new computer are on the agenda. Not much ells to write right now. hard to talk about yourself when you work nights and sleep during the day.

Well, figured id update finaly. not that very many pepole are reading this or anything.

A few days ago, A guy I work with came in on his day off, and wanted me to give him a dime out of my drawer. I told him no both because I thought he was kidding, and there was no way I was going to give him ANY amount of money from my drawer. so he went over to one of the other cashregester drawers that was a back up for our night crew (since we work nights, no one is in the office to get us more money so we get 3 drawers) opened it took the money he needed out, and left. I mentioned it to my manager who talked to the big managers, and the next night he was fired.

Even though even though he was a close minded rasist white supremisest, I, and everyone ells on the night crew, hated his guts, and that he deserved to get fired (not just for stealing an insegnifigant amount of money, but mostly for messing with someone ellses till), I somehow feal a little giulty about it. But for the most part, im glad to high hell I never have to look at him again! YAY!

Currently listening to music while I wate for my girlfriend to get on to chat with her. Shes on a trip to Texas at the moment. So I figure ill write about the song im listening to. Probably wont make much sence but hey. its something to do.
come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
im not sure I understand
this road iv ben given
(I know that fealing. I feal sometimes like the reason pepole dont seam to see or understand me is as if im dead.)

I sit and talk to god
and he just laughs at my plans
my head speaks a language
I dont understand
(And boy dose he laugh LOUD! It seams like whenever I do something in life, everything turns out different from how I plan it. Not nessesaraly bad, but it almost never ends how I emagined it. And there are times that I think things and I kinda have to wonder, what the heck dose that mean?)

I just want a feal
real love
thru the home that I live in
Cause I got to much live
runing thru my vens going to waste
(Iv lived in alot of places in my life, and alot of them I just didnt feal like I belonged there. Iv ben in a house FULL of pepole, and felt like I was compleatly alone.)

I dont want to die
but I aint kean on living eather
(Iv felt that way quite often in my life too. afrade to die yet hateing to live. not very plesent)


before I fall in love
Im preparing to leave her
I scare myself to death
Thats why I keep on runing
Before Iv arived
I can see myself comeing
(cant say I agree with this thought....I am deffinetly NOT preparing to leave my girlfriend. Though I do worry sometimes she may leave me, its a risk im wiling to take for love. For those who have never met me in person, im a bit of a hopeless romantic)

I just want to feal
real love thru the home that I live in
Cause I got too much life runing thru my vens going to waste
I nead to feal real love in the love ever after

I canot get enough
(Deffinetly cant get enough of love. never enough)

I just want to feal real love thru the home that I live in
I got to much love runing thru my veins to go to waste
I just want to feal real love and the love ever after
theres ahole in my sole you can see it in my face its real big place
(till I met Kati, I felt like I was missing a huge part of me. It was realy depressing. Im glad shes here now.)

come on hold my hand
I want to contact the living
not shure I understand
this road iv ben driveing

not shure I understand
not shure I understand
not shure I understand
Not shure I understand
(the world is a confusing place. Its up to pepole to make sence of it. Thats the fun of life I suppose.)

Girlfriends on line now going to talk to her. goodnight world.

Ok. there. Iv ben messing around with the picture editor on my computer wich came with my camera for nearly 3 hours now to get this picture right. Its a picture of me wearing some of my military surplus collection. Im proud of how it came out. Im new to CG picture editing and the program that came with my camera is realy basic.

Well, this is my first entery. Mostly puting this up to have something to write when I just want to write. Dont know what I will write in here or when. Just depends on what im thinking about at the moment. Not much ells to say today. Just mostly messing with options on this figureing out how to mess around with it. Will probably write more later Warning for anyone who cares, I refuse to use spell check even though I cant spell very well. mostly, this is because I am trying to get myself to spell better.

Goodnight world.